And for the first time in a long time,
I went to sleep without thinking of 'what ifs'
and what not. Because,
This time I went to sleep,
Knowing and accepting -
that it's over. But I just couldn't see it till now.
I went to sleep knowing..
I've finally had my closure after so long.

"We've run out words, we've run out of time."

I really want to do it over, we were so close ~ but I'm happy for you.

Get Smart and Kung Fu Panda were really good ~ you guys should go watch it. :) The Batman movie looks totally exciting - The fact that Heath Ledger's acting skills really showed through in the trailer makes me want to really watch it - Reviews from critics were excellent, although maybe I should watch the other Batman movies, if there were any? (God, I suck).

Holidays have been alright so far, it's half way over and it feels as if I haven't been on holidays yet at school all week, or something alike. And the two days I have stayed home have been complete mental torture... The time ticked by so slowly!! And not to mention, I haven't done much work either.

Let's re-cap.

On Saturday, was work, then sleepover at mine with Kara and Mary. That was pretty fun, except I got really tired. Went Cabramatta with the family + Mary the next day, and then off to Burwood where I saw Tara (well, technically, she saw me.) Didn't get anything but it was still enjoyable.
Monday I went to take the little brother and Joanna Chau to watch Kung Fu Panda ~ it was pretty good. She got picked up by an African and she kept freaking out, funny kunt, LOL. Got mum to buy me a poofy skirt, which was really pretty. Went tutor that night, where I made Daniel spill water on the ground and some Jason guy nearly fell. LOL.
Tuesday I think I stayed home..... Yeah.
Wednesday last minute decided to go city with Joanna Chau and Vanessa Nguyen. Went to the In Cafe and we ate a lot. Went and took Capitols and it was pretty funny, even though the pictures weren't the best. Vanessa had an extra eye, I had on a bunny rabbit hat and Joanna had a purple eye. Walked them to tutor, saw most of them except for Simon and the teacher didn't remember me, rofl.
Thursday yeah, I can't remember. T_T"
Friday I stayed home and drove myself nuts, LOL. Had a really good talk with Joanna Tran, the best one we've had for two months or so. Made me realise something and it brought me down today.
Today I was sitting down, waiting for my dad, and FILIPE CHEN nearly ran me over, ROFLOL. He picks on me because I'm the youngest, nearly crashes into me, throws paper at my head, calls me a bludger, JEEESES, LOL. Had a good talk with Matt H about... Taxis. LOL, and how it goes up every second. Trevor calls me Jenny From The Block cos I keep coming down to footwear, LOL. And Christopher is now "Mr Ex Franklins" and "Miss Rebel Sport." Haha, he's so cute. Then went to watch Get Smart with Kara, and got my movie ticket for $2.50 from Robert - Kara kicked herself cos she got hers for 14 bucks, AHAH sucker. Me and my connections (kidding.) Nah, but seriously, instead of $11.50 I paid $2.50. HAHAHAHA, TWO FUCKING FIFTY. Yeah anyway, random movie, but I liked it :)

I'll miss you Karaaaa =(

Hopefully you've noticed over the past few weeks that it's been a lot easier to talk to other people - perhaps one Very Important Person more so than anyone else. This has been thanks to the passage of the communications planet Mercury through your House of Other People. He's about to leave now, but before he does, he's giving you a few last opportunities to say what you need to, to that Significant Other Person (past, present or potential) in your life. So what are you waiting for? Communication is the key to pretty much everything in relationships, non?

O___________________________O!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nooooo, nooo, oh my god, NO COME ON!!!! =_=

Subject selection is like drilling my head in.
I've got four definite subjects.

> Adv. English (2u)
> 2u Maths (Fuck 3u.)
> Business (2u)
> Eco. (2u)

And I'm contemplating over:

> Information Process and Technology
> Textiles
> Geography
> Modern History
> Legal Studies
> Religion (Either 1u or 2u)
> Biology (This is like, last option. I'm not going to fall back onto Science, lol)

I'm falling towards Information Process and Technology and Legal Studies, but I don't know if I'd enjoy Legal Studies. I'm trying to pick out 14 units so I can just drop a subject in year twelve and be safe with 12 units, (and fail one subject if I have to - Let it be maths.) But I want to do textiles, too. But after reading the booklet I'm kind of, eh? And Geography, Modern History, Religion and Biology is just to fill up extra units.

After that paragraph, I'm thinking of:

> Information Process and Technology (2u)
> Legal Studies (2u)
> Modern History (2u)

Which makes that a total of 14u, and I'm happy with that but, MY FUCKING -- I don't know!!! How about if I end up hating History completely? I'm hating it this year, how about Legal Studies? Would I bloody enjoy that, LOL. No I wouldn't, scratch that, so I definitely, ... Maybe taking:

> Information Process and Technology
> Modern History.

Probably end up taking Geography, LOL. That means I'll have all Social Science subjects except for one (Which is Legal.)
I'll decide later.


> Adv. English (2u)
> 2u Maths (Fuck 3u.)
> Business (2u)
> Eco. (2u)
> Information Process and Technology (2u)
> Modern History. (2u)

12u so far, help me with my last one. =(

Holidays are next week, I simply cannot wait! I'm anticipating until the days I can sleep in and relax at home!!!! Although down side is, I'm not working much during the holidays and I really want the pay because dad's birthday is next week, and I was meant to get my GHD next week or so because my straightener is dying and peeling, in addition, I don't want mum and dad to fork out $300 for a straightener when I can get it myself.

Anyway, back to my point - I wanted to work a lot during the holidays because it's dad's birthday next week and I'm planning to chip in with my mum to get him this $400 - $600 leather jacket for him and I'm also planning to shout dinner for the family... BUT, considering the amount of work I'm given I don't think it would be possible to persuade any more plans after this... Sigh.

Even though he said not to get him anything, or anything expensive at all, as if my mum and I would listen to that, considering all his hard work and dedication to this family I don't even think shouting him dinner and getting him that jacket he's been wanting for ages will make it up to him. Well it would help if I wasn't failing Maths but that's another story for another day...

On top of this, I've been thinking a lot about donating few hundred to my family in Vietnam, I haven't seen them in over a year and I think I should do something like that for the family over there. So there goes another two weeks of work but it's worth it. And for a while I've been planning to fork out how ever much to sort out our family photos and so. There's two plastic bags full of photos down stairs and I'm planning to go through them again after this post. I've come to the realisation that my brother has grown up so quick. He went from being an average, kind of chubby kid to this very lanky eight year old. I thank whoever and whatever that he was well when he was born considering his weak heart and the possibility of him being a 'down syndrome.' Those words still break my heart to this day.

And my dad, the kindest man in the word, use to be a gangster of some sort. How scary is that!!! My old man, the use to be gangster. I kind of understand why he loves me as much as he does, I was the one who changed his life.

I feel so family orientated and I hope this goes on & on & on. <3

MY GOD. THIS STUPID MILEY CYRUS - SEE YOU AGAIN SONG HAS BEEN IN MY HEAD SINCE YESTERDAY AFTERNOON WHEN ZENA MENTIONED THAT STUPID GOD DAMN TWO FACED TV SHOW WHORE BAG. :@ Thank God I didn't go to Cabra singing it.. Otherwise I would've been kicked in the head. Instead we were all being faggots and screaming at each other and yelling all over the place. =_=
BUN BO HUE YESTERDAY, =9. Mae and I were literally crying because our one had heaps of chilli in it, before we even ate I wanted to choke and die of laughter because of that girl. LOL, I won't embarrass you babe... BUT FUCKING, LOL. And the other night in tutor, Miss drew a penis, HAHAH A PENIS, FOR A NOSE, ROFLOL. Oh, priceless moment, you had to be there.
And I hope we make it into PDHPE so we could skip a day off, LOL. God, next week is going to be a bludge. Monday is nothing, Tuesday is our bloody science test but we have parent teacher interviews so that means off at 1.45 baby! Then Wednesday.. Dahh? I can't remember. FRIDAY IS CITY AFTER UTS BABY. I haven't been there in yonks.
I'm out all weekend, that bums me a bit because I'm not going to have proper sleep for Saturday. I'm gone from 9am to 12am, man. =( But Sunday I have it better, 12pm to like 9pm. =D
AND MY HAIR, I'M NOW A FAT ASIAN GIRL WITH SHORT HAIR. LOL, stupid hairdresser blah.
And, Sam got evicted from ANTM, so like, we're left with bitch and bitchier who can't feel her lips. =="
THIS SUCKS, blah commerce is due next term, I should start so I could memorise that piece of crappp.

Haha now I smile every time 'work' comes up. It's been a fun two shifts so far, and I think today was one a half pay -- I hope it is, please, please, please! Today was the 4.5 hour shift, it was alright. I served more customers and gave out more customer assistance stickers, I hope I get commission this week! S.. Oh my god, I forgot her name, let's just do it GG way and call her 'S'. Well yeah, she was replacing GG today, (his real name is Ganga or something) and I had work with Ha today! Whoo! Fun shift. I took care of basically the men's section and I am the baby of Rebel Sport - :L.
At one point I was standing with 'S', Mathew (I think. Well the Exercise Manager) and ... Let's just call him the guy with the 'mad' tan (he's actually like really dark skin coloured, I'm not being racist but like I can't remember his name) and Jenna (HAHA, stupid bitch LOL) and they were like, "Oh my god, look at her, she thinks she's top shit." LOL, stupid people. They're really funny, LOL.
Mathew: What's up with FAF?
Jenny + Ha: WAHHHH?
Mathew: Ferrel Asian Fashion
Jenny: I'LL FAF YOU >=(
I accidentally dropped a 4kg dumbbell on his hand, T_T" Sorry, LOL. 'I told ya not to drop the dumbbell on me hand!'
They're all pretty old though.. Like Kylie + Mathew are in their 30's, and the rest are like 18 and above and in their <insert year here> of University... And as Alyce pointed out, I haven't even done my SC yet. And they've been through HSC and all, damnnnit.
Clothing is pretty fun, I hope I get to stay in there. It's alright if customers know what they want and all, but I just don't know the specifics... Yet. Anyway, it's fun and so far everyone seems nice. Cept for that one girl yesterday that was an absolute bitch to me. =(
Blah, I'm tired. =x

Today was my first shift at Rebel Sport.
It was eight and a half hours long and my feet wanted to drop off by the end of the day.
I gave up on having a 30 minute break and opt for a 15 minute one instead because I was so bored.
Also, having my stomach churning because of the time-of--the-15-months came yesterday and mum is more excited then I was.
I told her that I forgot to tell her when she picked me up from McDonalds after work yesterday and she asked me why I didn't call her from school. Bloody woman, I never knew she was that worried. Her ankle is better, btw, but my ass still hurts from falling down the stairs. It seriously feels worse today.
It was fun for a while, but then it got really boring... And slow. And I couldn't be bothered, and so I was walking around fixing/'recovering' for around 3 hours while yawning... Except stopping occasionally to greet customers. The change rooms are gross & Alyce bought me Adidas shorts marked down from $40 to $5 because we were doing clearance on clothing and we got first dibbs. Stupid day, I didn't ask dad for money and I gave my key card to Vivian, but so worth it because of prom, baby!
I found out I have the whole next weekend at work, and the Saturday after. Now I got to make sure my plans are two weeks beforehand or N/A off every freaking Saturday and get myself fired. Far out. I like the uniform though, very comfortable.
And how the hell did I get my airforces dirty already? They were pure and white in the morning, and after walking around Rebel for 8 and a half hours they got dirty. Shit kunts, :L.
I got really hungry by 3.30 or something and I ended up walking around yawning continuously like a zombie. I resembled a zombie, literally. What I like about this job is that you can be off in your own world and you don't have to talk to anybody else, except that's lonely. I am lonely. I hope Ha or someone else is working tomorrow, Kylie's nice and all but she's also at the registers.
I got work tomorrow from 12 - 4.30, yay short shift!
And yesterday's last shift wasn't fun, lol. Well some aspects of it but it still didn't compare to last week. Mark kept feeding me, he gave me a cheeseburger, chicken fillet thing and a 6 pack. I should have gotten the filet o fish patty, too. Damn. And I got a free cheesburger before my shift, too. Haha sick bitch.
It's as if I'm pregnant, I'm craving a Big Mac. I plan to venture out to Bankstown tomorrow morning and get a Big Mac then walk it to Rebel to get more clothes + start work. Dad also forgot to pick me up until like ten minutes later. I was shit scared standing in the dark.
So far, Rebel Sport > McDonalds.
+ this is all for you Christina. If I don't blog in 3 days... Happy 15th birthday babes. ;) I hope you have a terrific day + you better call me you shit kunt, I miis2 yoOh pis2iink buddiehh <3 eveRsiinCe O5 baybeeh. baybeeh jennz <3z baby cK, ke ke ke. i'lL alwaiish haff a speshool place iin maii haaRt foOrh yoOoh. yOoh deSeRve alL dah beSt. *mwackkk!

Yeah, I just want to get it down cos it made my day yesterday lol.


Induction day today.
Was boring.
I have work next Friday (Maccas), Saturday + Sunday (Rebel).
They roster me so much, I'm going to N/A off a lot. And get myself fired and come back for Maccas (L) LOL
Naw I regret it kind of, as much as everyone from school bad -mouthed it, it's a fun and stupid environment to work in, esp on good days. i want to do close with fun kunts againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn pleaseeeeee.